Update

So, my last post was all about how tired and weary I was feeling.  Four young kids, a toddler with night terrors and a baby who refuses to sleep through the night, and that's not really that surprising.  So, for awhile now, I've kept thinking it made sense -- of course I'm exhausted and tired and want to sleep for just one stretch of several hours without anyone needing me.  But, it was getting to be too much -- I was not only tired, but physically and emotionally weary all the time.  It can't be normal to feel this way.

So, I called my doctor again, wanted my thyroid checked and stuff like that.

The blood work came back.  I have some big challenges ahead of me to get me back to normal -- my thyroid function is fortunately fine.  But, I'm so severely anemic that I'm we're talking about such options as IVs/hospital visits to start to rebuild some iron stores.  There's also several other levels that are so drastically low that my doctor commented she was shocked I was able to put one foot in front of the other, let alone care for four young kids.

So, I'm kind of just reeling right now.  I'm not happy with my doctor and how she's handled things (i.e., I've been anemic in the past, and called several times in the last couple months asking questions about thyroid issues, since I was so run down and losing piles of hair still, and not only did she never have me come in, she wasn't even returning my calls.)  I feel kinda stupid I didn't push things more, when I knew on one level that something was wrong, but you just have to understand how tired I am.  Pushing someone wasn't even a possibility in my mind.  So, I'm taking my lab results and seeing a new doctor.

On one hand I'm hopeful that now that we've identified the problem (or several of them), we can start to rebuild me from the ground up and maybe there's a possibility I won't forever be a zombie in my own life.  Wish me luck.  The other part of me is just sad and scared that I'm having a health crisis I've ignored for too long.  I'm afraid of the long road, and I wonder how long it'll be 'til I start to feel better and like myself again.  Prayers, please.  :-)